I am having a sort of existential crisis of sorts.
I don’t really want to go to USA and I don’t know if i really want to study Economics. Well no that is not true, I do want to study economics if I study something. I mean, if university is where I am going then Economics it is. But, i wish i had a choice, an alternative to university. Being of the kind of society I am, it was never a question that I would go to university, that thought process does not exist in this area of the world.
I also wish I hadn’t picked USA. It is a crap country let’s be honest. Nothing I can do about that now, and I am having a hard time dealing with the fact that I can’t do much about anything.
My boyfriend’s father has a terminal illness. Well, we aren’t exactly dating at the moment, we have been for a little over two years but I guess we are friends now. I’m his best friend, he is a close friend of mine. Anyways, the point is that is another place where i have absolutely no power in. Things are just how they are.
And this inability to do anything about anything is getting to me so hard.
Ye olde emos are helping me now. Panic! and FOB basically. Here‘s an oldie but a goodie.